Goals (to be reached eventually)

1. obtain passport and go somewhere

2. throw out four boxes of stuff

3. visit Mahea in Santa Barbara

4. learn how to brew beer

5. finish the Natural History of Brownes Meadows (seven more chapters! You can do it!)

6. Obtain a credit card with frequent flyer miles...and fly somewhere other than Montana this winter....no more snowy vacations.

7. Stock kitchen with rice/flour/cans/etc while its still cheap..... maybe mass murder deer population in Columbia so I can grow a garden as well.... hire sniper? dispose of diseased meat.

8. write letters to the following people: Holly, Grandpa, Grandma, Lillian, Kira, Jason, Joe, Shira, Lahna, Kevin, Rachel, Rachael, Jack, and Stacey

9. Forgive Daniela.... forgive Oliver....forgive David...and forgive Earlene.... just let it go, its not worth your angst anymore and certainly not worth you holding back for other friends or lovers.

10. Re-establish savings account and don't go back to school when its replenished. You are overeducated right now...work.

11. take Grandma out for Japanese food as a thank you... also, send her photos of every trip Matt and I have taken into the backcountry so she can show her bingo club. remember to get pictures from Matt.

12. Meet Matt's family.... perhaps mix with #6, also don't freak him out with weird girl romantic notions ... play it cool, you have a lot of time....and let him choose wardrobe just in case. Also, don't ask him again, once is enough, he heard you the first time. don't be that nagging bitch you roll your eyes at in the grocery store.

13. Distinguish self in new job (take all needed tests to boost pay up to $25/hr ASAP)... do not distinguish self as "know it all", "bitch", or "that chick who always wants something".... and try not to disagree with the boss anymore, he's there for a reason even if you don't see it right now. Also, you can't change the system so play within it and enjoy the company car.

14. Visit Vickie in New Zealand.... again, perhaps mix with #6...and #1

15. establish blogging pattern... and actually stick to it... try to write again instead of doing the environmental reporting...also don't put shit up here, you are not a poet.

16. cook one intricate meal a week to eat by candle light with Matt...preferably naked (remember to tell roomate so as not to frighten him....also remember to give roomate tips to keep his hot college grad girlfriend...such as cleaning the friggin' toilet)

17. invent two new sexual positions... maybe mix with #16... does not need to be completely new as that is most likely impossible.

18. tone and maintain muscles over holidays... (ha!) no really, at least try..... (HA!!) ok.... try not to grow out of new jeans over holidays....by one size.

19. ration booze intake...average one drink a night. starting monday.

20. Create "man space" in house for Matt and roomate so as to show off ability to let boys be boys.... REFRAIN FROM CLEANING OR LOOKING AT DIRTY PICTURES IN MAN SPACE!!! also, allow motorcycles, oil, motorcycle parts, and various noisy tools in "man space".... no dishes/silverware/cups though

21. Limit drinking when Liz and Christi come to visit.... DO NOT TRY TO OUTDRINK LIZ!!!!! DO NOT DRINK ABSINTHE WITH LIZ!!!!

22. Don't cry while solemnizing Christi's marriage.... use Theresa May tactics to enunciate while sobbing. You are a Shakesperian actress, you have played ten of the most challenging female roles ever written, you can handle marrying your best friend.

23. stop making long lists of things you want to do with exceptions.